Going to Germany
Tuesday, June 27, 2006 3:38 AM
Right, it is confirm that I'll be going off to Germany this July. I'll be flying off on 9 July @ 23.05pm. I'll be over there for like a month as I pai sae to stay there @ my cousin's place 4 too long. Like da rao her like that. I'm flying off to Frankfurt, but I'm not gng there. I'm gng to a place 20 mins frm Frankfurt, a town called Bad Homburg. My cousin lives there wif her husband.
I'm looking fwd to go there, but I'm oso nt looking fwd to go there. My cousin found me a job there, nope, nt a full job or wat, it's sorta like helping out only. won't draw a salary officially, but will be given an allowance of EUR 40... app. S$80.... haha... anyway, the company is a small coy, my cousin-in-law works dere, n he talked to his boss into letting me help out dere.
I'm pretty excited in the job as i'll be experiencing how dey work and etc, but oso the more i think, the more i'm scared. u noe, when u started to think more in depth of it, the more questions you have to yerself. Like, will i be able to get along wif dose ppl dere, how will my lunch be? who will i be eating wif? (i mean i'm used to eating alone, it's all right, but the prob is it's nt SG, it Germany!) what do i need to do? etc, etc...... I'm actually getting more n more nervous tat my heart is thumping n i almost cried out! HELP!!!! i'm scared! i'm truly scared!
it doesn't matter that i fly alone. i'm all right with it. it's an experience. it's the matter on the duration when i'm there. i oso dunno what i'm so worried about. i guess is cuz i'm all alone out there, n dere's no one with me. Yes, i noe i have my cousin, but afterall, she gt her own life n cant possibly stay wif me all the time. when i'm @ the company "helping out" i'm basically all alone. haiz.... i'd stutter when i think of it. with all those angmos, n i dun understand deir language, n everything.....
actually i'm very zi bei on my eng n my speech. whenever i'm talking wif someone who's speech n eng better than me, i won't speak tat well. but when i'm wif my frenz or siblings, my eng speeck is rather smooth.... haiz.... i oso dunno y..... it happens all the time.... haiz..... how i wish someone's gng over wif me.... :( haiz....... i oso dunno if i gt the time to use the net or nt when i'm over there. cuz i really need the blog to fa xie my moods...... haha.....
also i need to update my story too..... haiz.... dunno if gt time to write or nt over there. i do hope i have the time lor, i cannot stand nt writing my story n i can't afford nt to update 4 so long. almost a mth leh. i'm afraid all my readers will left me if i dun update.
Remember, my flight is on the 9th July 23.05, Those who want to see me off, feel free to do so. haha... but please do let me noe beforehand, so i can expect you @ the airport. :P ;P