Wonder wat's gng on wif my life..... :( i'm so envy those ppl wif many frenz..... while i only got like 3/4 close frenz tat can talk...... the rest, i either dun get to see em or had stopped contacting altogether.... hmmm.... within the 3 /4 close frenz.... 1, u send msg ot her, she dun even bother to reply u...... 2, she got her own grp of frenz n always meeting up wif em..... 3, although i known her 4 like 20 yrs, n we're really really super close when we're like in sec sch... but den, dun noe how, we fell apart, now talk very general stuffs..... can't really talk abt anything personal..... :( haiz.... dun noe y like tat.... it's like i'm soooo alone.....

Yeah, some wuld say i still have my sis... but den those 2 ah..... haiz.... got each other can liao..... no need me one.....i dun noe wat's wrong wif my life.... haiz.... i've got no nothing.... no close frenz, no circle of frenz, no bf, no career, no money, no nothing...... i such a huge failure..... wat shld i do? i tried talking to ppl, interacting wif everyone.... but it dun seem to work..... i'm a natural-born introvert...... i can't take the intiative to chat wif ppl.... cuz i dun noe how to start.....

most of my frenz r all females..... no males..... oh alright, there's some.... but most all no contact one..... 'cept frm my wrkpl one...... haiz...... n u noe wat, 1 of my lecturers say.... an certified accountant, shld have a wide social circle.... dey shld have many frenz frm all walks of life... but 4 person like me, i dun tink so..... tat's y now i tinking of stop studying accounting.... i dun tink it really suits me..... i can't even pass 1 ACCA level 2 paper..... haiz..... i tried to tell my parents abt it.... initially dey say fine wif it, but later when i talk more abt it, dey wuld tell me to finish studying it..... i dun understand y..... i already told em tat i'm not interested abt it anymore..... but dey keep telling me to finish it by hook or by crook..... haiz..... i'm really stressed..... how i wish i can drop dead rite now..... den i won't have to fuss abt anything..... but i dun have any illness.... can't die frm illness..... accident.... i'm a pretty careful person...... haiz....... i'm a chicken person, dun dare to commit suicide......

HELP!!!!!!!!! can anyone help me?!?!?! i really wish to widen my circle of frenz but dun noe how, i have very low confidence n self-esteem..... n i dun have the looks..... i really wish i have more frenz dan i do now, n i can find someone who loves me real soon.....

but i guess.... i'll stay single my whole life til i die...... i'm pretty sure abt it...... ppl say in this world, there'll definately be someone of the opp. side destined to be wif u.... but i guess, the person who is destined to be wif me, is either had become a gay or had died...... i'm pretty sure abt it..... so i guess i'll remain single all my life le..... haiz.... i'm really envy those who have someone to love her, someone to protect her...... but i dun tink i'll be the one.....

hey Jan, Jo..... nxt time when u gals do get married, dun send me an invitation plse.... haha.... cuz i'll not be turning up..... i'll send my best greetings to u gals, but i'm not showing up..... so u dun need to send me an invitation..... i'm sorry, but i mean it..... haha....

i dun noe y suddenly i'm saying all these..... but if u dun like to read this, plse dun..... i'm writing these only to get all this things out of my chest......